my question not technical but related with learn

my question not technical but related with learn, i'm back end developer have a great experience in last 3 years with have months, in this 3 years i don't have a mentor to give me a headline in right path, all my information from google + online courses with difrence places .. i'm not good in english but i'm not bad, you can understand what i say and i can know what you say

this journey with PHP Stack my exprince with PHP + Laravel + MySQL DB + java script + Jquery Lib + i'm Good in oop and i know MVC good + plus i'm good with any OS like (windows + Linux + Mac os)

All people Give php a old man becouse his not faster bla bla and i know dont have a support from bigist companies this time, and for now my experience with start up companies Most of these companies do not yet exist.

i dont like work in software house i hope work in product / service to get my mission to be in this career (Help World ) i need one message to ignite it and drop it among the world .

I was puzzled here continue with php or change for other good new boy and what you suggest for me with your experience